I know there are reports of pilots crashing their planes into American ships because they or their planes were so damaged that they'd never make it back and subsequently decided to try to take out as many US forces as possible with them. The pilots I'm curious about however are the ones that were sent out specifically for the purpose of intentionally crashing into a US vessel and turning back home instead of completing their kamikaze mission.
Yes, there are pilots who were not able to carry out their missions due to issues with their aircraft, being shot down by Allied forces, or other reasons. These pilots were heavily stigmatized leading some to regret that decision for decades as they were treated like social pariahs. There is a fantastic work called 'Kamikaze Diaries' which is essentially memoirs of the pilots, including those who didn't carry out their missions. You can find a decent summary here. One of things to note from this reading is that the stigma didn't really diminish a few years later, but rather decades later.
It is also interesting that some of the top officers in the Japanese Air Force thought little of these tactics. Captain Genda, who was one of the major planners of the Pearl Harbor raid, thought that officers who approved this should lead from the front and be first in line to volunteer. Now, most of that information comes from post war sources (In this case, the book Genda's Blade by Sakaida) so the possibility of historical revisionism is there.